TO ALL MY BESTFRIENDS.
IF YOU STILL THINK THAT I'M YOUR FRIENDS.
EVEN I EVER SAID THAT YOU'RE NOT MY FRIENDS ANYMORE, I NEVER MEANS THAT.
YOU KNOW, THERE'S SO HARD FOR ME TO DELETE AND FORGET SOMETHING PRECIOUS IN MY LIFE..
AND YOU ALL, ONE OF MANY PRECIOUS THINGS I HAD IN THIS LIFE.
THIS DEDICATED FOR:
MY BESTFRIEND EVER-AMIRA
THE ONE WHO ALWAYS CAN MAKE ME CALM, AND SOMETIMES MAKE ME CRIES-NIDA
THE ONE WHO REALLY LOVEABLE, AND MAKES ME FEEL ALONE IN THIS WORLD-BULKIS.
BUT HOWEVER, YOU'RE THE BEST CHAIRMATES I EVER HAVE. AMIRA TOO. OF COURSE.
THE ONE WHO ALWAYS CHEER ME UP WITH JOKES, EVERYTIME-MARISA.
AND THE LAST, THE ONE WHO SOMETIMES DO SOMETHING THAT I HATE AND MAKES ME ALWAYS FEEL I'M SO USELESS AND UNIMPORTANT IN THIS WORLD-WIDA.
BUT, SHE'S STILL MY FRIENDS WHO INFLUENCE ME TO LEARN ENGLISH MUCH BETTER, THOUGH
THE SCIENTIST-COLDPLAY
Come up to meet you, tell you I'm
sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I've set you apart
Tell me your secrets
And ask me your questions
Oh, let's go back to the start
Running in circles
Coming up tails
Heads on the science apart
Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start
I was just guessing
At numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart
Questions of science
Science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
Oh tell me you love me
Come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles
Chasing our tails
Coming back as we are
Nobody said it was easy
Oh, it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I’m going back to the start
Oh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ah ooh ooh ooh ooh
Oh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Oh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Friday, October 15, 2010
If i can replay that again..
I wish i can do that.
Really. To fixs all my mistakes to my friends.
Ahh, you know, blog?
I make new promise in my heart now,,
I'll never believe someone too much again now
Like how i really believing them,,
Thinking that they'll never leave me,,
Thinking that they'll always besides me,,
I know, i'm not perfect at all.
I'm not an loveable girl. Not a beautiful, smart, and active girl.
Oh, my friends, you don't how i'm really changes now,,
There's no IRA again,, She already gone from my soul,,
But there's FEDIRA
Someone who always be quiet, silence, and smiling to everyone. Thought she don't like them.
FEDIRA always wear that,,
THE SMLE FACE,,
So, everybody wi;; never hate her,, and will kept close to her,,
Hahaha, how really MUNAFIK she is,,
But, what can i do again?
I've been lost myself. I've been lost the light in my heart.
Nothing there except the darkness,
And my soul, full of it now,,
NEVER TALK AND OPINION LIKE YOU REALLY KNOW WHO I AM
You don't know what happen to me in the past
In the home, behind your back, and now,,
And all of that memories, make me back with different emotional,,
Become SINIS person, and always wear a smile everytime,
Is BETTER than be someone who really show her emotion,,
Ehm, we call them, 'BLAK-BLAKAN'
You know, i have 5 new principe now,,
Want to know that?
1. NEVER BELIEVE SOMEONE TOO MUCH AGAIN (i'm already said it in the first)
2. DO NOT TOO MUCH DREAMS. CAUSE IT MIGHT HURT YOU
3. JUST SMILE, AND EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT
4. JUST BE YOURSELF, FEDIRA. DON'T CARE HOW REALLY UGLY YOU ARE, HOW REALLY NOT-LOVEABLE YOU ARE, JUST BE YOURSELF. SHOW THEM, HOW YOU CAN LIFE WITHOUT THEM.
5. I JUST HAVE 2 FRIENDS-2 PERSON THAT I CAN BELIEVE.
MY HANDPHONE
AND YOU, MY BLOG
Of course, Allah too. But Allah not a person. Allah is the GOD.
The Only One who made me,,
Ok Guys, i'll tell you something about me that you never know.
MY FAMILY IS NOT LIKE YOUR FAMILY.
YOUR LITTLE WARM FAMILY.
BUT MY FAMILY IS NOT AN BROKEN HOME TOO.
THAT'S A WARM FAMILY TOO..
BUT, THAT'S NOT LIKE YOUR FAMILY,,
AND ALL OF THAT THINGS
MY FAMILY, MY FRIENDS HERE, AND JUNIOR HIGH SCHOOLS
ARE MAKES ME CHANGE NOW,,
THANK'S TO YOU ALL
YOU BUILT MY NEW PERSONALITY
AND MAKES ME DROWNING MORE DEEP TOO
IN THE NEVER ENDING DARKNESS SEA..
THANK'S A LOT
Really. To fixs all my mistakes to my friends.
Ahh, you know, blog?
I make new promise in my heart now,,
I'll never believe someone too much again now
Like how i really believing them,,
Thinking that they'll never leave me,,
Thinking that they'll always besides me,,
I know, i'm not perfect at all.
I'm not an loveable girl. Not a beautiful, smart, and active girl.
Oh, my friends, you don't how i'm really changes now,,
There's no IRA again,, She already gone from my soul,,
But there's FEDIRA
Someone who always be quiet, silence, and smiling to everyone. Thought she don't like them.
FEDIRA always wear that,,
THE SMLE FACE,,
So, everybody wi;; never hate her,, and will kept close to her,,
Hahaha, how really MUNAFIK she is,,
But, what can i do again?
I've been lost myself. I've been lost the light in my heart.
Nothing there except the darkness,
And my soul, full of it now,,
NEVER TALK AND OPINION LIKE YOU REALLY KNOW WHO I AM
You don't know what happen to me in the past
In the home, behind your back, and now,,
And all of that memories, make me back with different emotional,,
Become SINIS person, and always wear a smile everytime,
Is BETTER than be someone who really show her emotion,,
Ehm, we call them, 'BLAK-BLAKAN'
You know, i have 5 new principe now,,
Want to know that?
1. NEVER BELIEVE SOMEONE TOO MUCH AGAIN (i'm already said it in the first)
2. DO NOT TOO MUCH DREAMS. CAUSE IT MIGHT HURT YOU
3. JUST SMILE, AND EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT
4. JUST BE YOURSELF, FEDIRA. DON'T CARE HOW REALLY UGLY YOU ARE, HOW REALLY NOT-LOVEABLE YOU ARE, JUST BE YOURSELF. SHOW THEM, HOW YOU CAN LIFE WITHOUT THEM.
5. I JUST HAVE 2 FRIENDS-2 PERSON THAT I CAN BELIEVE.
MY HANDPHONE
AND YOU, MY BLOG
Of course, Allah too. But Allah not a person. Allah is the GOD.
The Only One who made me,,
Ok Guys, i'll tell you something about me that you never know.
MY FAMILY IS NOT LIKE YOUR FAMILY.
YOUR LITTLE WARM FAMILY.
BUT MY FAMILY IS NOT AN BROKEN HOME TOO.
THAT'S A WARM FAMILY TOO..
BUT, THAT'S NOT LIKE YOUR FAMILY,,
AND ALL OF THAT THINGS
MY FAMILY, MY FRIENDS HERE, AND JUNIOR HIGH SCHOOLS
ARE MAKES ME CHANGE NOW,,
THANK'S TO YOU ALL
YOU BUILT MY NEW PERSONALITY
AND MAKES ME DROWNING MORE DEEP TOO
IN THE NEVER ENDING DARKNESS SEA..
THANK'S A LOT
Sunday, October 10, 2010
story
Peluru itu lagi-lagi menembus jantungku.
Tatapan mata itu lagi-lagi membekukanku.
Dan raut wajah itu, lagi-lagi membuatku terpana.
Aku..jatuh lagi..
Untuk kesekian kalinya..
James Arthur Geordann namanya. Pemuda tampan berambut coklat terindah yang pernah kutemui selama 340 tahun aku hidup. Ia memiliki matanya yang selalu bisa membiusku, dan membuatku tenggelam ke dalam mata biru malamnya.
Aku pertama kali mengenalnya saat kelompokku sedang mengadakan perburuan di kaki bukit Winston, dan aku melihatnya. Aku mungkin awalnya hanyalah menganggapnya mangsa-hingga ia menghisapku ke dalam matanya.
Membuatku membeku, dan merona,-untuk yang pertama kalinya setelah kejadian itu..
-'Kau jahat, Rico!'aku ingat, kata itulah yang terakhir kali kukatakan sebelum darah emas itu mengalir di pembuluhku. Sebelum darah itu mengubah genetikaku menjadi pengisap darah yang selalu haus. Vampire. Yah, kau tahu itu apa. Itulah aku. Detik terakhirnya yang kutahu saat aku merasa hidupku tak berarti lagi, aku membiarkan para pemangsa itu menggerogoti & mengisap darah di tubuhku. Dan saat aku sadar, aku.. Sudah menjadi makhluk yang sama seperti mereka.
Ini salahmu, Rico. Salah tunanganku yang bermulut manis itu. Kalau saja kau tidak membohongi dan mengkhianatiku, tentunya saat ini aku sudah ada di sampingmu-sebagai mempelai wanita. Tidak seperti saat ini-ada di sampingmu, yang mengering kehabisan darah. Kuseka tetesan darah di ujung bibirku. Aku sengaja tak menyisakannya darah setitikpun. Aku tak mau ia juga berubah menjadi makhluk konyol sepertiku. Akupun berbalik, dan mendapati Elisabeth-vampire yang satu asrama denganku, tersenyum sinis, "Sudah selesai acara balas dendamnya?"
"Tentu.."jawabku sambil mengambil jasku yang tergeletak di lantai. "Dan rasanya.. Menyenangkan.."lanjutku lagi.
--
'Diane Emerson Henrietta'
Deceased by a bear in the Hope hills.
There was a eight biten found in her body. She died because miss half of her blood.She will buried in Howstoun McGrory public
cemetery. -
Itulah potongan koran terakhir yang kubaca 320 tahun yang lalu. Diane si gadis malang, yang tidak punya keluarga dan di temukan tewas di pegunungan, dan di makamkan di pemakaman massal.Ya, dialah aku. Perkenalkan, akulah Diane yang dibicarakan di koran itu. Akulah gadis berambut pirang kemerahan oleh darah yang ada di koran itu.
Hahaha, akulah si payah yang mati hanya karena sakit hati. Kutatap sudut asramaku-asrama Weckerson, asrama untuk para vampire sepertiku. Hei, jangan kira kami ini tidak berpendidikan. Kami juga punya sekolah. Hanya saja.. Sekolah itu agak berbeda dari kalian. "Diane!"seru seseorang tiba-tiba. Aku menoleh. Dan melihat seorang gadis berkacamata dengan terengah-rengah menghampiriku. "Kenapa?"
"haah.. Haaah.. Sebentar.."ucapnya berusaha mengatur nafas. Ia lalu melanjutkan perkataannya. "Aku dari bagian penyiaran akademi, ingin memberikan undangan ini padamu"lengan putihnya lalu mengulurkan sehelai kertas.
"This Our Party!
Be sure you come to this biggest event in this year!
You can dancing,
You can singing,
And mostly important, you can DRINKING blood as you like!!
What a great party is this! Right?
So come on!
We'll looking forward to see you on:
Thursday-3th
Jane (ex) ballet hall at Southern 3rd street"
Begitulah kira-kira isinya. Dengan cepat, aku mengembalikan kertas itu padanya. "Maaf, tapi aku tidak tertarik. Lebih baik aku memburu mangsa sendiri,"
"Ta-tapi, pesta ini sangat menyenangkan! Kami sangat mengharapkan kehadiranmu!"cegatnya kemudian. Aku sedikit menghentakkan tanganku, lalu kembali berbalik, "Apa alasanmu sehingga kehadiranku akan menjadi sangat penting disana?"
Gadis itu terdiam. Ia lalu membetulkan kacamatanya, dan mulai berbicara dengan suara rendah "Kita akan melanggar peraturan Akademi. Kita akan mencari mangsa 30 km darisini. Dan kau, akan sangat di butuhkan dalam hal ilusi.."--
--
Tatapan mata itu lagi-lagi membekukanku.
Dan raut wajah itu, lagi-lagi membuatku terpana.
Aku..jatuh lagi..
Untuk kesekian kalinya..
James Arthur Geordann namanya. Pemuda tampan berambut coklat terindah yang pernah kutemui selama 340 tahun aku hidup. Ia memiliki matanya yang selalu bisa membiusku, dan membuatku tenggelam ke dalam mata biru malamnya.
Aku pertama kali mengenalnya saat kelompokku sedang mengadakan perburuan di kaki bukit Winston, dan aku melihatnya. Aku mungkin awalnya hanyalah menganggapnya mangsa-hingga ia menghisapku ke dalam matanya.
Membuatku membeku, dan merona,-untuk yang pertama kalinya setelah kejadian itu..
-'Kau jahat, Rico!'aku ingat, kata itulah yang terakhir kali kukatakan sebelum darah emas itu mengalir di pembuluhku. Sebelum darah itu mengubah genetikaku menjadi pengisap darah yang selalu haus. Vampire. Yah, kau tahu itu apa. Itulah aku. Detik terakhirnya yang kutahu saat aku merasa hidupku tak berarti lagi, aku membiarkan para pemangsa itu menggerogoti & mengisap darah di tubuhku. Dan saat aku sadar, aku.. Sudah menjadi makhluk yang sama seperti mereka.
Ini salahmu, Rico. Salah tunanganku yang bermulut manis itu. Kalau saja kau tidak membohongi dan mengkhianatiku, tentunya saat ini aku sudah ada di sampingmu-sebagai mempelai wanita. Tidak seperti saat ini-ada di sampingmu, yang mengering kehabisan darah. Kuseka tetesan darah di ujung bibirku. Aku sengaja tak menyisakannya darah setitikpun. Aku tak mau ia juga berubah menjadi makhluk konyol sepertiku. Akupun berbalik, dan mendapati Elisabeth-vampire yang satu asrama denganku, tersenyum sinis, "Sudah selesai acara balas dendamnya?"
"Tentu.."jawabku sambil mengambil jasku yang tergeletak di lantai. "Dan rasanya.. Menyenangkan.."lanjutku lagi.
--
'Diane Emerson Henrietta'
Deceased by a bear in the Hope hills.
There was a eight biten found in her body. She died because miss half of her blood.She will buried in Howstoun McGrory public
cemetery. -
Itulah potongan koran terakhir yang kubaca 320 tahun yang lalu. Diane si gadis malang, yang tidak punya keluarga dan di temukan tewas di pegunungan, dan di makamkan di pemakaman massal.Ya, dialah aku. Perkenalkan, akulah Diane yang dibicarakan di koran itu. Akulah gadis berambut pirang kemerahan oleh darah yang ada di koran itu.
Hahaha, akulah si payah yang mati hanya karena sakit hati. Kutatap sudut asramaku-asrama Weckerson, asrama untuk para vampire sepertiku. Hei, jangan kira kami ini tidak berpendidikan. Kami juga punya sekolah. Hanya saja.. Sekolah itu agak berbeda dari kalian. "Diane!"seru seseorang tiba-tiba. Aku menoleh. Dan melihat seorang gadis berkacamata dengan terengah-rengah menghampiriku. "Kenapa?"
"haah.. Haaah.. Sebentar.."ucapnya berusaha mengatur nafas. Ia lalu melanjutkan perkataannya. "Aku dari bagian penyiaran akademi, ingin memberikan undangan ini padamu"lengan putihnya lalu mengulurkan sehelai kertas.
"This Our Party!
Be sure you come to this biggest event in this year!
You can dancing,
You can singing,
And mostly important, you can DRINKING blood as you like!!
What a great party is this! Right?
So come on!
We'll looking forward to see you on:
Thursday-3th
Jane (ex) ballet hall at Southern 3rd street"
Begitulah kira-kira isinya. Dengan cepat, aku mengembalikan kertas itu padanya. "Maaf, tapi aku tidak tertarik. Lebih baik aku memburu mangsa sendiri,"
"Ta-tapi, pesta ini sangat menyenangkan! Kami sangat mengharapkan kehadiranmu!"cegatnya kemudian. Aku sedikit menghentakkan tanganku, lalu kembali berbalik, "Apa alasanmu sehingga kehadiranku akan menjadi sangat penting disana?"
Gadis itu terdiam. Ia lalu membetulkan kacamatanya, dan mulai berbicara dengan suara rendah "Kita akan melanggar peraturan Akademi. Kita akan mencari mangsa 30 km darisini. Dan kau, akan sangat di butuhkan dalam hal ilusi.."--
--
Thursday, October 7, 2010
I love, oh maybe, i LIKE someone that i shouldn't like.
Yeah, maybe this mad.
Haha, never think i like vampires, or werewolfs like in Twilight.
I just like, some ordinary person. Who always looks extra-ordinary in my eyes.
I don't know, what the part of him that make me exciting.
He's have a handsome face. But you know, his not the most shining stone in stone basket.
I like him. But i don't know why. Maybe you'll say that i'm stipid or crazy, cause i like him, before that i know him! And i never talk & chat with him!
Is it something called 'love at the first sight'?
Hahaha
Yeah, maybe this mad.
Haha, never think i like vampires, or werewolfs like in Twilight.
I just like, some ordinary person. Who always looks extra-ordinary in my eyes.
I don't know, what the part of him that make me exciting.
He's have a handsome face. But you know, his not the most shining stone in stone basket.
I like him. But i don't know why. Maybe you'll say that i'm stipid or crazy, cause i like him, before that i know him! And i never talk & chat with him!
Is it something called 'love at the first sight'?
Hahaha
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
whatever you think about what i wrote here cause i dun need ur opinion
I LOVE YOU.
I know that's just an simple words.
And everybody says it everyday to their couples.
But, are they never think, how really precious and important that word?
If we too often to said it, our couples will getting bored to heard it. And that's will not a 'love' word again.
But just a 'general' word.
Ok, sorry. I'm OOT.
Let's in to our majors artciles :
Hm, honestly, this the first i like someone like this. I never can erase him from my mind. And everytime i got closed to him, its feels like a thousan butterflies fly in my stomach, and my heart beating faster.
But, what can i do?
I know. I'll never can get you.
Cause i'm ugly..
I know that's just an simple words.
And everybody says it everyday to their couples.
But, are they never think, how really precious and important that word?
If we too often to said it, our couples will getting bored to heard it. And that's will not a 'love' word again.
But just a 'general' word.
Ok, sorry. I'm OOT.
Let's in to our majors artciles :
Hm, honestly, this the first i like someone like this. I never can erase him from my mind. And everytime i got closed to him, its feels like a thousan butterflies fly in my stomach, and my heart beating faster.
But, what can i do?
I know. I'll never can get you.
Cause i'm ugly..
whats written down here just a little part of darkness upon my heart
Sentences that i often said it :
1."I'm not important"
Jangan kira aku mengatakan hal ini tanpa alasan. Hello, gurls!
Emang kalian pikir aku selama ini cuman caper kalian?
Nggak!! Apa yang kuungkapin soal "Aku gak penting" itu beneran apa yang kurasain!
Aku sakit hati!
Dulu rasa ini selalu bisa kutahan dan kupendam. Dan kalian tahu apa akibatnya? Dia jadi mengendap dan semakin banyak dan banyak tiap hari.
Kalian sudah membuat kegelapan di hatiku. Dan itu, pelan-pelan merayapi dan menghancurkanku..
2. "I'm not beautifull"
Hell yeah!
It's true?!
Right!!
If this not true, why you all never commented on my photos?
Even if i tagged u there!!
Everything i do is never work to u!
Apapun yg kulakukan slalu unimportant di mata kalian!
Aku tahu kalian cantik! Walau ternyata bisa uncare gitu ama perasaan orang!
3."I'm ok. Really. Just continue ur conversation with her"
Hahaha?!
I imagine, how stupid i am in that time!
Slalu mengalah sama kalian?!
LMAO!
Gua nyesel kayak gitu kemaren!!
Karena akibatnya gua skarang cuman kalian anggap alas kaki!!
1."I'm not important"
Jangan kira aku mengatakan hal ini tanpa alasan. Hello, gurls!
Emang kalian pikir aku selama ini cuman caper kalian?
Nggak!! Apa yang kuungkapin soal "Aku gak penting" itu beneran apa yang kurasain!
Aku sakit hati!
Dulu rasa ini selalu bisa kutahan dan kupendam. Dan kalian tahu apa akibatnya? Dia jadi mengendap dan semakin banyak dan banyak tiap hari.
Kalian sudah membuat kegelapan di hatiku. Dan itu, pelan-pelan merayapi dan menghancurkanku..
2. "I'm not beautifull"
Hell yeah!
It's true?!
Right!!
If this not true, why you all never commented on my photos?
Even if i tagged u there!!
Everything i do is never work to u!
Apapun yg kulakukan slalu unimportant di mata kalian!
Aku tahu kalian cantik! Walau ternyata bisa uncare gitu ama perasaan orang!
3."I'm ok. Really. Just continue ur conversation with her"
Hahaha?!
I imagine, how stupid i am in that time!
Slalu mengalah sama kalian?!
LMAO!
Gua nyesel kayak gitu kemaren!!
Karena akibatnya gua skarang cuman kalian anggap alas kaki!!
Just for the liar who always said that they're my bf
Hahaha, nice, my peng you!
You say you all are my friends, my best friends.
But, that's not true!
Since her walk into my life, and getting closer to u all, hh!
You all changes!
U all always give her something i really need-- An attention from u.
Every time she changes her pp, u al always commented there?!
And said something like "Oh, u're really cool!, Kawaii nee >
I really dissapoint to u all!
I dunno how to erase and just keep this feeling in the darkest and deepest side of my heart. But i cant
Everytime i see ur timeline or wtw with her, that's feeling burning, and always feels like it ready to bang!!
I know, i'm not beautiful like her.
But did u never think about what i feels cause of this?
Or u didn't have a brain??
Ooh, how IDIOTS you are,
That's hurt!
You say you all are my friends, my best friends.
But, that's not true!
Since her walk into my life, and getting closer to u all, hh!
You all changes!
U all always give her something i really need-- An attention from u.
Every time she changes her pp, u al always commented there?!
And said something like "Oh, u're really cool!, Kawaii nee >
I really dissapoint to u all!
I dunno how to erase and just keep this feeling in the darkest and deepest side of my heart. But i cant
Everytime i see ur timeline or wtw with her, that's feeling burning, and always feels like it ready to bang!!
I know, i'm not beautiful like her.
But did u never think about what i feels cause of this?
Or u didn't have a brain??
Ooh, how IDIOTS you are,
That's hurt!
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